BXBX NOVEL Chapter 137: Unending Despair
He clutched his heart.
"What… what was that?"
"The beginning of the Age of Gods.
"It was the first battle between the Almighty Godking, Zeus, and the Father of Time, Kronos."
Neo was shaken to the core.
The third vision showed him things beyond his wildest imagination.
He was not in a different world.
This was his world, just far into the future after the Apocalypse arrived.
"Now, the question.
"Did Kronos do the right thing by killing Melinoë?
"Before you make a decision, let me tell you Kronos lost his family — his friends who were like brothers to him — in the Apocalypse brought by Melinoë.
"It might sound cliché, but Kronos did not kill her out of a sense of justice.
"He wanted revenge for his brothers."
Neo bit his lips.
Kronos — Francis — did it for Neo and Klein\'s sake.
He wanted to say Kronos was correct.
However, Dios\' emotions would not let him.
The Sphinx chuckled.
"Seems like you are not shocked by the fact that the Gods were once mortal, but by the vision itself.
"Was the pain of Great God Zeus too much for you?"
It continued to speak.
"Then, do you think Zeus made the right decision by protecting his sister even though she caused the death of billions?
"Don\'t forget Zeus killed an entire city in mad rage."
Sphinx watched with curiosity as Neo was torn between the choices.
Rationality or his emotions.
Kronos or Zeus.
Neo was shivering.
Just when Sphinx thought Neo was about to crumble, he raised his head.
"Hey, you fucking bitch."
He stared at the Sphinx.
"Start the fourth vision."
"Are you sure about that?"
The Sphinx saw through Neo\'s fake bravado easily.
"Even I don\'t know what is in the fourth vision nor can I know.
"The Akashic Records will show you your personal despair."
The Sphinx continued, amused.
"Barely anyone comes out unscathed from the fourth vision.
"Do you really want to enter it?
"You might just end up losing yourself." the Sphinx explained.
"Yes, I want to enter the fourth vision."
"If that is what you wish."
The Sphinx knew Neo would agree.
They always agreed.
Always.
…
Neo flipped the pages of the diary.
[Day 1: I\'m ….. the last …. of Hades. More …. people are …. I …. to talk …..
]
[Day 2: …. losing …. the Clans …. no longer …. ]
A lot of content of the dairy was scribbled over in what seemed like made rage.
Only a few words were intelligible.
The pages were crumbled and a bit damp.
[Day 48: …. my fault …. we defeated …. I couldn\'t …. ]
He continued to flip.
The number of empty pages continued to increase as he went deeper.
[Day 72: … strong … overwhelmingly ….. everyone …. falling ….. ]
[Day 125: We lost.]
[Day 498: Not ….. alive ….. I alone ….. along…. ]
[Day 1013: I want to die.]
[Day 1014: I want to die. I want to die.]
[Day 1015: I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.]
[Day 1016: I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.
I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.
I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.
I want to die. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.]
The dairy entries suddenly stopped.
There was nothing no matter how long the man flipped.
Just when it seemed there were no more entries on the dairy\'s pages, he reached written pages.
[Day 3679: …. tried everything …. Immortal … can\'t…. ]
[Day 3680: Please, let me die.]
[Day 4115: … child of lightning … decapitated …. his .... still fights …. I …. last …. alive.]
The man stopped flipping through the diary.
As if he knew it was the last entry.
He opened the last page and wrote a new line.
[Day 123,526: This is my last entry. I wish I could\'ve done better.]
The man rose from his seat.
He closed the diary.
His face in the mirror reflected his blood-red eyes, black hair, and his head wrapped in bandages.
He removed them.
Ugly scars and burnt marks revealed themselves.
The man\'s original face was unrecognizable.
He moved towards the door and opened it.
Maggots everywhere.
They had eaten everything.
The entire world was their buffet.
The man looked towards the east.
The thunderclouds that used to cover the skies were no longer visible.
"It seems the child of lightning\'s corpse was eaten as well."
The maggots crawled towards the man.
He did not stop them nor did he try to escape.
There was nowhere left to escape.
The maggots ate him.
His body regenerated.
They ate him.
His body regenerated.
The cycle continued.
The world was destroyed.
The man floated in the void, amidst the sea of the maggots eating him alive.
He continued to live on.
He was Immortal.
Time continued to pass.
Years…
Decades...
Centuries…
Millennia...
Eons…
Epochs…
Ages…
Aeons…
Until the unending eternity.
The man wouldn\'t die.
He couldn\'t die.
He continued to live, left alone with his regrets.
If only he had not failed.
If only he had done better.
…
"What is happening with him?"
The Sphinx muttered as it watched Neo.
"Why isn\'t he waking up?"
Usually, it took a few moments for a vision to end.
However, Neo had spent one month within the fourth vision.
He showed no signs of completing it anytime soon.
The Sphinx held its chin.
"What kind of vision needs him to spend so much time on it?"
Unlike other visions, the Sphinx had no idea what would happen in the fourth vision.
It had allowed Neo to enter the fourth vision because it wanted to see the Akashic Record\'s decision.
If Neo was dangerous, the Akashic Record would kill him in the fourth vision.
If Neo was harmless, the Akashic Record would not do anything unfavorable to him.
"Seems like Akashic Record decided to finish him off."
The Sphinx left the hall and disappeared.
It decided to give its final report to the principal.